my sweet hometown!!!

view from my longhouse

mum and auntie

just arrived from my hometown last 2 days...really miss my hometown especially my grandma and my family there...spent my time a week there, really enjoy myself...it's quite tired to get there, long journey...from kuching to sibu about 5 hours by bus and then from sibu to kapit about 3 hours by express...uhh...

mother's day..

mum, auntie and their friends

happy mother's day..

just a simple celebration for mummy...celebrated it with mum, auntie n also their friends...love u so much mum...

my interview...

thanks God for He always leads all my way..His strength and wisdom make it possible for me during my interview..nervousness always come first,huhu...this was my first interview, i can't sleep all over the night...my dad sent me to maktab perguruan batu lintang as early 6.15 am because my interview started at 8.00 am..traffic jam during all the way, i'm tried to get away and avoid my nervousness but i can't...i have 3 sessions during that interview, first we had to write an essay which is only 30 minutes, then we went for group discussion and 6 of us in that group discussion..during group discussion my nervousness slowly getting low and that 30 minutes group discussion was a chance for me to forget all my nervousness...after 30 minutes of group discussion, then it was a time for individual interview...uhh, i'm the second candidate...the minute i entered the room i saw the two interviewers were smiling at me at that made me feel better...the two of them asked quite a lot of questions, they asked me about issue of education and thanks God because i can answer their questions..it was about 15 mins...at the end of the interview, two of them gave me some advices and wish me gud luck and all the best..thanks God because during the interview He always with me and gave me ideas in answering all the question...i hope and hand all this to God... :=)
for my friends out there, all the best for ur coming KPLI's interview especially for Dijah ;)

i'm home!!!!

i'm home rite now...errmm,it's good to be home..but sometimes quite boring coz got nothing to do,juz eat n sleep..haha..i'm kind of blur rite now, dunno wat should i do..all i know is i want to rest myself in these 2 weeks before i go on looking for my job but in the meanwhile i'll try to get my job as soon as possible..but this week i'll busy prepare myself for KPLI interview next week, so nervous because i never attend any interview before..moreover the interview quite tough..thanks God i've passed mtest..
really miss my friends, yesterday me and some of my friends went out and we 'makan2'..really enjoyed our time..erm, my friend dijah..take care of urself k,really miss u ol..c u when u back for ur interview also..

1 more to go!!yesh2...

uh, done with one paper but still have another paper to go...now can tarik nafas a bit, but quite dissapointed with paper just now..why? maybe i'm too focus on this paper and i'm not doing my well just now..uhh, read a lot but when it's come to write down and convey my idea i got stuck..i'm runnin out of idea, 6 questions and have to answer only 4 questions..all 4 questions in essay form, this paper is all about the second language acquisition..juz goreng-goreng lah my idea...quite worry but it's passed, cannot turn back the time...4 questions and i can only answer quite well in 2 questions but last 2 questions quite terrible...especially last question because i only wrote about only 1 page,arghhhh!!!! i dun have enough time... :(
ermm..whatever lah, all i have to do now is carry on with my next paper, this coming paper too technical...uhh, wat a tired being a student...

Mi FaMiLia

Dad & Mum
Three of Us (including me yea ;p)

Really miss my family, i can't wait to go home and spend my time with my family..not really a big family, only 5 of us..my siblings are all girls..ehehe..really close to each other, happy family..always share our problems n also love to laugh especially my mum..she's kind of funny n happy go lucky but watch out yea if she's not satisfied with sumthing she will burst it out no matter what will happen...my dad kind of 'pendiam' but he's really strict, if he thinks that something is not right in his eyes then he will saying it not only for a person in family but the whole family (means 4 of us)haha...really loves my mum n dad, they inspire me a lot..all i want to do is to make their happy and wanna see their smile...thanks a lot to mum n dad...my two sisters also inspire me a lot, my youngest sis is bigger than two of us..haha..that's why sometimes people thought that she's the eldest...she's very 'rajin' helping my mum but she got 'udang di sebalik batu', why? because if she help my mum then she will ask some 'gaji'..haha..whatever lah as long as she happy and also we don't mind about that..my eldest sis also quite funny, she's kind of 'kelam-kabut'...we can memorise her dialogue when she's home after her working time..'don't disturb me, i'm very tired and i want to have a rest', this is her dialogue...haha...really miss all those time we had spent together, a lot of temptation and hardship but thanks God we can handle it as we walk together as one family...God bless our family...

confused???

erm...sometimes i feel that i have no confident with myself, i'm confused with my decisions...uhh, i don't know why this came across my mind right now..why it should happen right now? if i could turn back the time i really want to do it, i want to go back to the past...i want to get back all my decisions that i have made...i don't know whether i'm doing the right things right now, i'm confused with my life...i don't know which ways i should go, it's seem that all the doors are closed and there's no even a way for me to get out of this matter...sometimes i feel this world is really unfair, i don't know why it's only me carry all these while some others are happy and laughing with their lives right now? why it should be like this? i'm just a human like others, there's a time i can carry it but there's a time i can't...why it's always me to make other people laugh, to make them happy but what about myself? am i really happy? all i have to do is just pretending in front of them that i'm also happy with what i'm doing now...i can smile and laugh but deep down in my heart no one knows...how long i can stand with all these? i don't know...i really want to make my decision right now but i have no strength to do it, i'm afraid that i will let others people down, i don't want to hurt anyone because i know how it is feel to be hurt...i feel horrible now...i really don't want to think about it but i have to, it's my future but what can i do about it? but sometimes i feel that maybe i just have to go on with my decision...