Should or Shouldn't

again...stuck in the middle of decisions...it's either should i keep on waiting or not? confusing...when can i get the answer? when can this puzzle is done? wondering about it...maybe i should just wait and give more times on it but until when...just want to make it clear so that there will be no more this difficult puzzle. It's getting harder when there is not even a hint to settle this puzzle...

I'm Blessed

want to share this with u all...this msg was from my friend Josephine...really thanks her for being on time...i'm feel better after read this =)

"Seorang penumpang terselamat dari kecelakaan kapal dan dihanyutkan ke satu pulau kecil yang tidak berpenghuni. Dia berdoa dan tidak berputus asa mencari penyelamat tetapi masih tiada yang datang menyelamatkannya. Dengan susah payah dia mendirikan sebuah pondok kecil di tempat dia berteduh. Suatu hari apabila dia kembali daripada mencari makanan, dia mendapati pondoknya terbakar. Semua yang dimilikinya habis terbakar. Dia tenggelam di dalam kesedihan dan hatinya memberontak. 'Tuhan, mengapa Kau melakukan ini terhadap aku!' tangisnya. Tetapi keesokan harinta, dia terbangun oleh bunyi kapal yang semakin hampir. Dia bertanya kepada penolongnya bagaimana mereka menjumpai dia. Jawab mereka ' kami melihat asapmu'....Sangat mudah untuk menjadi kecewa ketika masalah menjadi tidak baik. Tetapi seharusnya kita tidak berkecil hati kerana Tuhan sedang bekerja dalam hidup kita meskipun di tengah kesusahan dan penderitaan. Ingatlah di kemudian hari apabila rumah kecil mu habis terbakar, itu mungkin saja hanya tanda yang akan memulai kasih karunia Tuhan dalam hidup mu"...

There's a time for everything...there's also a reason for every what had happened in life, most of the time we blame ourselves on our failures in life...regretful comes in life but times cannot turn back to the past, we always saying that if we were given a chance to back to the past we will not to do all the mistakes and failures...but for sure it won't happen...as i walk in this journey with full of difficulties, as my journey full of tears but i learned something...something precious in my life...all those mistakes and failures teach me to be more mature and teach me to be confident to face it if it will happen again (surely difficulties and temptations won't never stop)...more mature and more confident because i know one thing...i know and sure within this difficulties i'm not alone...my closest friend and my precious friend walk with me, He's the only, He's to only reason i can stand still until now...He's my Father...

Another Chapter...New Journey

Melisa, Me, Kety
Siti, Shima, Me, Melisa
Us (Dinner with JKM)

Us Again

1st September was my first day of working at PPKS, Kuching...kind of nervous (baru masuk keja bah, hehe)...it's a private college and so of course everyday i meet with a lot of students...whenever i go to classes i will remember my past time as a student...what a great time being a student...they are very friendly, cheeky and naughty..well, that's student and i know very much because i've being a student before...hehehe...when they meet me they will say "Hye Miss", "tak balik lagi ke Miss"...hikhik...

okay, that's about the students..now i want to share about my collix...ermm..don't have lot comment as i only knw them within 2 months but i'm very close with some of my collix...Melisa, Kety, Siti, Shima and Loheves...but only left 4 of us coz Loheves and Shima got other job...miss both of them...we out lunch together...

quite a good start for me but honestly i'm still looking for other job...i need to pray hard for this...i know He hold the future...i'll hand this to my Father...

I'm Back...updating my blog...

Pictures on my graduation day...13 August 2009

My Family

Friend forever
GBU

Finally...

mmm....alloo everyone...ermm...quite a long time didn't updated my blog...didn't have much time to write on this wall...surely there's a lot of things and stories happened as the times go on in this life...where should i start first? ermm...perhaps i should start with my graduation day with u all...my great n big day...after 3 years in USM, finally i'm graduated on 13 August 2009 at Dewan Tuanku Syed Putra, Universiti Sains Malaysia....yeyyy....thanks God for that...God is good all the time...not by my strength but by His strength..He's the reason that i can graduated after 3 years...3 years being a student was not an easy journey...being a student was not just a matter of study...sweets and sours...pain and tears...temptation and difficult time...uhh...can't describe it...all i can say is God is with me..He walk with me and hold my hands...He never leave me...He was there to wipe my tears..thanks God...mungkin pada mulanya, saya merasakan ketidakadilan berlaku dlm hidup saya..kadang2 terlintas mengapa harus saya yg menanggung ini sendirian, mengapa hanya saya yg harus mengalirkan airmata...tetapi semakin saya melangkah dlm hidup ini barulah saya sedar bahawa semua ini ada jawapan di sebaliknya...sy masih lagi ingat akan kata2 ssorg yg mengatakan "saya tidak mahu ingat apa yg pahit spt hempedu dlm hidup saya tetapi saya hanya mahu ingat apa yg manis dan madu sahaja dlm hidup saya"...begitu manis dan indah kata2 ini..kata2 inilah yg makin membangunkan saya...jgnlah ingt hal2 yg pahit tetapi ingatlah hal2 yg manis...

Dlm menempuhi smua pencobaan, syukur buat teman2 yg setia berada di sisi bg membangkitkan lagi saya...to CHILLIES...Josephine, Dijah, Serin, Robayah, Aren, Julie, Shomie, Joana, Kak Ros, Kak Miska, Eunice, Bulan, Adriana, Ps Alan and all FGA's member...thanks to u all...GBU all...wanna share these words with u all "bersyukurlah kamu kerana dipilih utk mengalami pencobaan dan kesusahan dlm kehidupan mu kerana hal itu mengajar kamu utk lebih kuat menghadapi pencobaan yg lebih besar dlm kehidupanmu agar kamu tidak akan kalah menghadapi smua itu, ingatlah bahawa setiap pencobaan yg berlaku itu tidak akan pernah melebihi kekuatan mu"..

Also thanks to my family, dad & mum...my two siblings...

Ku Percaya Janji Mu

it's 3.30 am and i still cannot sleep, i've tried to close my eyes but i can't...i don't know what's going on...but suddenly i remember a song by Maria Shandi...it's really a lovely song and the words in that song really touch me...

saat ku hancur hati

ku datang pada Mu

Kau bri kekuatan dan bri penghiburan

saat tak seorang pun dapat ku andalkan

Kau yang memberi jalan

Kau yang menuntunku

saat ku tak mengerti dalam hidup ini

namun firman Mu yang slalu menerangiku

Engkau yang buat ku kuat

lewati smua

Engkau pertolongan ku

tempat harapanku

Tuhan...

ku percaya janji Mu dalam hidupku

Tuhan...

Kau bri kemenangan

Tuhan...

Kau slalu setia di dalam hidupku

Kau berharga

Kaulah jaminanku dalam hidupku..

God bless :)

my sweet hometown!!!

view from my longhouse

mum and auntie

just arrived from my hometown last 2 days...really miss my hometown especially my grandma and my family there...spent my time a week there, really enjoy myself...it's quite tired to get there, long journey...from kuching to sibu about 5 hours by bus and then from sibu to kapit about 3 hours by express...uhh...

mother's day..

mum, auntie and their friends

happy mother's day..

just a simple celebration for mummy...celebrated it with mum, auntie n also their friends...love u so much mum...